Entry 258

It has been five years now ..
yeah i will remember this day for life ..
it just took :

One Problem

One Challenge

One Option

One Decision

One Outcome

some may remember what happened to me
some may not

But this past FIVE years has been a huge challenge for me
At merely 14 i went through a major operationg that cost me to loose sports for awhile
From a hyper active person i had to take a turn to being a vegetable
Still remember all i could do was sleep and have heaps of rest
In ICU the machine kept on beeping when i stop breathing
At that stage all i could do was fight the pain that was indescribable
Six days after the sugery, i sit up for the first time
There was intense pain in my head and it felt like bursting
It was Saturday, that was the day Chin Looi and Cynthia came all the way to visit me at the hospital and sitting up on the chair for nearly an hour in my new sticthed up body.
At a young age having to let go everything was really though.
Was at the peak of my high school years where i had every opportunity to represent school for all kinds of sports but i had to let it go and just get used to my new circumstances and sit for PMR the following year.

Shortly before the sugery, me as a not perfect human being was really having mixed feelings.
Not knowing to whom should i share my circumstances, words just couldn't seem to come out.
Putting up a smile everyday trying to comfort myself that everything will be alright.
But time just kept speeding up each day.
Honestly at 14 i was really scared, i am sure my parents were too for allowing me to undergo such dangerous sugery.
At that time, i was really asking God WHY ME of the few BILLION PEOPLE IN THE WORLD? WHY HAS IT GOT TO BE ME?
Well obviously i didn't get the answer then and there.